haha, i just read my last post…. thats funny “amazing summer so far”. it really was. i felt like i needed to post something on here, i dont know. its funny how shit can change so quickly, and you think you know a person, but with a blink of an eye you dont even know who they are anymore. i know it sounds super cliche, but it happened. i dont even know you anymore, its like the person you used to be was a completely different person or something. when we talk now, you’re just so rude and different. i wish i couldve done something, or say something that made this different. i know that we’re not “together” anymore, but its like as if every single guy i consider, i compare to you. theres something in my head that wont physically let me “hook up” with another guy. i tell myself he’s not going to either, hes still got feelings for me, but thats nottttttttttttt the case. i just dont know what runs through your fucking mind. i wish you could just tell me SOMETHING that will help make this easier for me, but you wont. i want to believe that theres still something there. i dont think anyoen knwos how terrible i feel over this either. its hoenstly what i think about every 10 minutes, for the past however many months. pretty shit way to start 2011, eh.